I struggle with forgiveness.
It’s easy to talk about letting go and letting God.
But doing so is one of my greatest challenges.
Giving up control is an almost impossible feat for a control freak.
Letting go is a tall order when I am used to holding on to everything for dear life.
Loving with a broken heart, trusting through broken faith,
smiling through pain is difficult for even the most well put together of us.
Some of us have mastered the art of falling apart
and putting ourselves back together again before anyone notices.
Put back together so well that you have to get up close and personal to notice the cracks –
this being the reason for my distance.
It comes easy for some; saying the right thing, feeling the right way,
even knowing what’s right in the first place.
Often times, I can’t tell.
I express what’s in my heart, say what’s on my mind,
and have too many feelings at one time to know what is right.
Often, I am wrong.
People struggle to forgive me.
They talk about letting go and letting God.
But doing so is one their greatest challenges.