He lifted me up,
She taught me to shine beauty,
when asked who I believe in
I replied, “both.”
and was outcast by the mass
for my refusal to choose.
yesterday I wouldn’t have thought twice
about what you thought of me.
but it seems I’ve grown a concern of some sort.
one that inspires reflection on my words
and examination of my thoughts.
concern about how our interactions affect you.
you see, I do care.
regardless of what I say, or what it seems.
I do care.
I tapped myself on the shoulder
until I got my attention.
then I finally turned around
and realized it was you.
the more I grow, the more I lose.
but what I lose I don’t need anyway.
worry is offered but I refuse.
like autumn trees letting go.
the saddle became uncomfortable.
ride was long, not to mention lonely.
and the beast itself constantly needed to be fed.
I never arrived where I was going
and it was hard to smell the flowers with my nose up in the air.
so I swung my leg over and prepared for the mile long dismount.
back to earth, touching down.
and bid goodbye to my high horse.
I either want to get to know you or myself.
whichever comes first.
because I’ve decided, that being your likeness,
your mysteries solve mine
and my quirks are clues to yours.
I wonder if someday I will find out that everything I think I am, the truth is, I am just the opposite. It is interesting to consider the physiology of the body where the left side of the brain controls the right side of the body and vice versa; and how everything that we see with our two retina is upside down but when our brain processes it they are combined into one image flipped right side up. We normally have general concepts of who we are, but if we get to know ourselves scientifically, we realize that everything we think we see and know and believe in this physical realm is literally upside, backwards, and/or an illusion.
Even that which we like to believe is supported by our science, such as our concepts of what is solid and still, we know is still illusion in some way since what we perceive as “solid” is composed of atoms, mostly empty space and constantly in motion.
So, how are we to think of ourselves and our world? Who do we think we are anyway? A better question is What do we think we are, and shouldn’t we make it a priority to find out?
I don’t have any specific answers as to how to kick start that sort of journey, because I realize how different things are for each individual. Self-exploration is personal by nature, so we could not all possibly agree on what we are. We can agree, however, that it’s a good time to stop seeing ourselves and the world in such surface level ways. And to stop simply believing everything we’ve been told is our reality. See for yourself. Look for yourself. Live for yourself. Learn for yourself.
In a reality where left is right, up is down, and outside-in is really inside-out – it’s probably a good time to gain new perspective.
One of the most difficult things to do is Start Over. After years of pouring our heart, love, time, energy and resources into a project, goal or relationship – it seems so defeating to just halt mission and abandon ship. But sometimes, it is necessary to do.
Rather than continue to go down a path that is not giving the results that we want, it may be better to take a moment to think about alternative routes. We know that there are many ways to reach a destination, so we need not be so stubborn to continue with a way that is clearly not working for us.
Sometimes the ego becomes the ruler, and we do not want others to think that we have failed. But changing directions does not indicate failure. It means that you have checked inventory, completed an evaluation, and concluded that there is a better way. Do not be afraid to take the better way once you identify it.
Sure, the changes may require you to utilize your public relations skills when people inevitably ask you, “What happened?” But like any good P.R. representative, you will already have your response prepared based on the information that you choose to release to the public. They do not have to know everything about why you decided to make changes in your plan; but what they should know is that you have taken the steps in order to put yourself in an even better position to achieve your goal.
Time and time again it has been proven that being successful is a state of mind; which is why you can give a mentally poor person a million dollars and they will soon be poor again. But if you take a million dollars away from a mentally rich person, they will find a way to make it back.
It is a powerful thing to have enough confidence in yourself to choose a different path that you know will still lead you to greater things. Regardless of what others think about your decision, you are able to move forward with the indispensable knowledge you gained from experience – Sometimes you have to start over, to win.