It was under there the whole time.
I took it for dead, not looking past the wooden casing that symbolized
that its work had been done, its battle had been won. But not the war.
Maybe a part of me wanted it to be over, to lay it to rest.
I was exhausted and so was my youth.
But no sooner had I made peace with our last days together,
did the thunder clap a rhythm that brought us back to life
like a cosmic defibrillator.
It wasn’t over. There was still more to love. Still more to war.
I’ll mistake you for dead again, my youth.
I’ll believe the murmuring of the crowd and the mirror’s lies,
long enough to accept it as truth.
But you won’t let me.
For another hundred years tiny rocks will sneak into my sandals
as my calves ache and my thighs burn from the climb.
And you’ll tell me that I love it.
I’ll vehemently deny you, and bury you
and attempt to prove that I can’t take another step.
Until I am waking up to us dancing to that eternal rhythm,
telling you that I love it.
Grateful that you are always there.